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I wanted to do as in my childhood. As my mother cooked. This taste cannot be passed on. The taste of happiness. I broke a lot of recipes. All are different! I needed it as my mom cooked it. But I can’t call her anymore...and the recipe for my happiness is lost forever.
I made a couple of plates for trial, according to different recipes. Not that... all. There is no mother. There is no happiness.

You know, this is the case, the reason is not in the recipe. I have a mother alive, old already, but memory, God give to everyone. And I know for a long time - what my mother is cooking is not exactly repeatable. I take a recipe from her, I consult on the course, I try - delicious, but not that, a half-blind mother will get up to the plate - and here it is, the taste of childhood, the taste of happiness. How! → I don’t understand, a miracle.