I, having a high moral appearance, in a rough form refused to her and left home. How good I am. He did everything right. Why am I ashamed of remembering this case and still feeling shit?
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You are a good man! I speak seriously. Really worthy of respect.
I speak as a woman who has visited... well, not quite in such but similar situations, not only as a drunken lady, but also as a witness.

And you feel bad, because you were much more drunk than her, and, in general, if sex had taken place, it would be you who (whose condition) had taken advantage of.