It is so:
Oh, brothers, how many of you have already understood. Help me too.

What I do wrong:
Student, almost excellent (sometimes the choir jump, but in general I go red), I get an Oxford scholarship, I ride around Russia at conferences and Olympics, I gave up the right from the first time, I work episodically, I do dance, I read books (from Strugack to Dostoevsky), I communicate calmly with the technique, linuxide, I look normal (years are green, teeth are golden:)), I live with a cat (feeded, scratched, pleased), I cook, I love order, I am engaged in the active promotion of science in my native universe, co-organizer of many competitions, social, creative.
You know, you are alone.

You are just shit. reconcile with this.